This is the first time I realized this was a special commemorative day. I knew October was National Miscarriage Awareness Month, but I did not know this day existed, until today.
Our rainbow baby, is our sweet and spicy, Carolaine.
We lost our precious Timothy, May 2016, and got pregnant with Carolaine a week later!
Talk about not being ready!
But God knew Carolaine would be the perfect addition to our family. Her sweet, loving, sometimes smothering love is so fierce, I am humbled to call her mine.
We lovingly refer to her as “our ninja” because she finds some sort of curious trouble to exploit, as silently as a mouse, in no time flat!
At first, I did not like the term “Rainbow Baby.” To me, rainbows signify God’s promise to Noah, not to flood the earth again:
“Then God said to Noah, “Yes, this rainbow is the sign of the covenant I am confirming with all the creatures on earth.”Genesis 9:17 NLT
When we miscarried, I felt God had broken His promises to me. Every time I tried to read the Bible, I would get so angry!
I thought God promised to take care of me, to work in my life for my good, to love me!
I drifted away from God.
Although, through this agonizing journey, God has brought good from it, it many ways.
First, our little cutie, what a rainbow she turned out to be, in our lives! I can’t even imagine life without this sweet, little dynamo!
My New Book
Second, God has lead me to write the soon to be published book, The Miscarriage Project, detailing not just my story, but nine others as well.
Even as it is soon to be published, I have hesitated slightly. The gravity of what I am about to share in this book, I have fought the entire time. But God’s will prevails.
I am happy to say the response to the book has been humbling. Even the professionals reading this book, at the publishing house, have been touched by its message and depth.
Stay tuned for The Miscarriage Project’s debut and thank you for your support and encouragement for its publication!! I couldn’t have done it alone.